Ahhh, Mother's Day. Here's the part where I should be so happy and excited I am a mother. But I have teenagers! I also have a four year old. My teenagers are putting me through, what everyone warned me about, including my own mother. "one day you'll have kids of your own." "Wait until you have your own kids." "Be careful what you do, because it all comes back to you."
My only comfort is that I believe I have paid for my sins, and my four year old daughter will not put me through it again. "God doesn't give you more then you can handle." My teenage boys have put me through enough, that I shouldn't have to go through it again. I believe it's an even slate for everything I put my parents through, and then some.
My four year daughter is already smarter then the teenagers! She knows today is mommy's day! Today I will cook, because that's what I find relaxing. I think I will cook all day, and drink while I'm doing it! I found Souplantations' recipe for corn muffins and I plan on baking those. I plan on making Giant, fattening burgers with all the fixins, avocado's, bacon, cheese, mushrooms, hot sauce, and anything else I can think of to put on my delicious burgers! That should be fun! Today I will do what I want, and not feel guilty about it. Today will be about me.
Lastly, my sister in law has invited me over for mothers day dinner. It's just too sad. Every time I start thinking about if I should go or not, I just start crying. My still-husband will be there. It's too sad for me. The whole situation. I think today, mostly, I will stay at home and take care of myself, and not go.
Happy Mothers Day to those who are.