I finally joined Match.com after posting my profile last week. I had 48 emails and 7 winks! That's pretty good right! I have to admit it was pretty fun to read all the emails and check out what men had to say. WOW! Men are sooo funny! It must be really difficult to be a man. Seriously. All I had to do was post a picture. Men on the other hand, see the picture and they have to come up with an opening line. Something to break the ice, sound original, be funny if possible, and tell me a little about themselves, and do all this in a short and sweet manner-before I get bored!
You would not believe what men will write! I've really gotten everything from 'hey baby!'.....(did he really open with that?) to 'Have you ever been with a younger man?' to really sweet, funny, articulate messages! I was quite surprised and very entertained!
Out of 48 emails I will return a couple of them. 'rockhardabs' will not be one of those! There were actually a couple of guys that sounded kind of interesting. It did help that they have an airplane (or so they say) I do have a thing for airplanes! Before you ask, yes I will only be dating those that have a positive cash flow. Call me a gold digger, call me whatever you want. I've dated broke men, I don't plan on doing that ever again. If your wondering why I am so adamant go ahead and read my previous blogs and you will quickly understand.
Oh yes, and I am so surprised how many men comment that 'I'm sexy'. How do they know that? If your a guy and your reading this I'd sure like to know. I just submitted one picture. It's not a bikini pic or risque or half-dressed, or anything like that. Just a regular picture. Yet, at least half the men that responded to me had the word 'sexy' in their response. I find that interesting.
I don't know when the next time I will log on will be, but I will definitely keep you posted!
Monday, December 5, 2011
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Match.com-The Profile!
So, as previously stated I have decided to join Match.com. It should be a very interesting journey. I encourage those who are considering the same, to follow me and see how it goes! This will be an honest, open, and often humorous blog! Some may not appreciate my sense of humor! I can already see that coming! I cannot write about this without calling it as I see it, so here goes:
I have had many discussions with friends about this before I actually did it. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE I have spoken to has said this is a 'must do'! I heard everything from, "I met my husband on Match.com" to, "only losers go to the internet for dating". Seriously, I am NOT an internet dater! I have never one this nor considered doing anything like this. First and foremost, I don't believe what people write. I am suspicious by nature. Thus my dilemma. I'm suspicious anyway, and prefer to wait and see what a man does, rather then what he says.
You can 'browse for free'. I got on Match and decided to 'browse.' That act alone is worth a couple of hours of laughter! I mean seriously...if you set up a profile name of 'softkisser' or 'bestkisser' or 'bizzle' or 'boytoy' or 'ImaKING', I really can't read much further.
I especially love the photos of men that look like prison photos. You know the kind with the pastel paint in the background and he's wearing a plain white tee. Don't ask me how I know this...I just do. Or even better, when they REALLY look like they are or have been recently been released from a crazy institution. What are these guys thinking? All bug eyed trying to catch a women. It's really quite funny. If you want some good free entertainment, just go 'browse' for a minute!
To set the record straight, the above comments are not to say that I look better then anyone else. Or to make fun of those not so attractive. I truly believe there is someone for everyone so that is not what I'm talking about. I'm really talking about people that post their pictures and really do LOOK crazy!
So I browsed through the photos. Out of about 100 pics I found one guy that I thought looked & sounded interesting. I don't date men based on looks. Been there, done that. Fine men are often the dumbest!
Match.com asks a lot of questions.. Mostly stupid ones. Like, what kind of animals do you like-and then they list, dog, cat, bird, fish...I mean who really cares if I will like your pet fish???
Most of the answers are standard, 'I like long walks on the beach'...occasionally a guy will be pretty funny. This means nothing. Just because they can write funny, doesn't mean they are!
I took the time to fill out my profile and then posted it! YIKES! That was last week. I did not join match.com. I'm the kind of person that really likes to weigh the pro's and cons before I actually partake. So I posted my profile and a week later I see that I have 41 emails! 41! That's good right? I mean if you look at the odds, I haven't had 41 guys ask me out this week! So before I even read the emails, which I can't do unless I join-that's how they get you. I wanted to post my original perception of the browsing thing. Honestly, I am interested in seeing who and what kind of men have emailed me. So please subscribe or follow me on twitter or just keep reading to see what happens!
I have had many discussions with friends about this before I actually did it. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE I have spoken to has said this is a 'must do'! I heard everything from, "I met my husband on Match.com" to, "only losers go to the internet for dating". Seriously, I am NOT an internet dater! I have never one this nor considered doing anything like this. First and foremost, I don't believe what people write. I am suspicious by nature. Thus my dilemma. I'm suspicious anyway, and prefer to wait and see what a man does, rather then what he says.
You can 'browse for free'. I got on Match and decided to 'browse.' That act alone is worth a couple of hours of laughter! I mean seriously...if you set up a profile name of 'softkisser' or 'bestkisser' or 'bizzle' or 'boytoy' or 'ImaKING', I really can't read much further.
I especially love the photos of men that look like prison photos. You know the kind with the pastel paint in the background and he's wearing a plain white tee. Don't ask me how I know this...I just do. Or even better, when they REALLY look like they are or have been recently been released from a crazy institution. What are these guys thinking? All bug eyed trying to catch a women. It's really quite funny. If you want some good free entertainment, just go 'browse' for a minute!
To set the record straight, the above comments are not to say that I look better then anyone else. Or to make fun of those not so attractive. I truly believe there is someone for everyone so that is not what I'm talking about. I'm really talking about people that post their pictures and really do LOOK crazy!
So I browsed through the photos. Out of about 100 pics I found one guy that I thought looked & sounded interesting. I don't date men based on looks. Been there, done that. Fine men are often the dumbest!
Match.com asks a lot of questions.. Mostly stupid ones. Like, what kind of animals do you like-and then they list, dog, cat, bird, fish...I mean who really cares if I will like your pet fish???
Most of the answers are standard, 'I like long walks on the beach'...occasionally a guy will be pretty funny. This means nothing. Just because they can write funny, doesn't mean they are!
I took the time to fill out my profile and then posted it! YIKES! That was last week. I did not join match.com. I'm the kind of person that really likes to weigh the pro's and cons before I actually partake. So I posted my profile and a week later I see that I have 41 emails! 41! That's good right? I mean if you look at the odds, I haven't had 41 guys ask me out this week! So before I even read the emails, which I can't do unless I join-that's how they get you. I wanted to post my original perception of the browsing thing. Honestly, I am interested in seeing who and what kind of men have emailed me. So please subscribe or follow me on twitter or just keep reading to see what happens!
Saturday, November 19, 2011
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU HAD SEX?
WARNING: DO NOT LET YOUR CHILDREN READ THIS. ADULT CONTENT.
I can't believe I'm writing about this, but I feel I must. It's personal, but must be shared. So here goes:
O.k. So Im dating in Orange County which is a whole experience in itself. There seems to be only three or four categories of men in the O.C:
1. They drive a Bentley and have tons of money so they think they can treat you any kind of way. They know there are many women who will tolerate this behavior. It's called selling your soul.
2. They have no money and want you to take care of them. They are looking for a mommy.
3. They are trying to pretend to be somebody they are not. or..They are an actor.
At least this is what I have come across. So, with a smile on my face I go out into the world and everyday am shocked an amazed to see what is out there. Recently I met a guy who has captured my interest beyond just the first date. That in itself is quite rare. Now, of course he has his issues, and of course I have mine. But he is smart and funny and keeps me on my toes. I never liked the easy, dumb guys.
So I'm out with this guy and somehow the question comes up, "when was the last time you had sex?"
and like an idiot...I answer. And, like an even bigger idiot I answer honestly.
uhhh....2 years. O.K. don't everyone go into cardiac arrest o.k. Especially those that know me. It wasn't planned that way, it just happened. I didn't say I lost my sexual desire. I just said it hasn't worked out for me. You see I have done the one night stands. Too many times. I'm over it. Yes, I could go out tonight if I wanted, meet a guy, and have sex. Matter of fact, I'm quite sure I could go out this morning, walk to the coffee shop and bring a guy home if I wanted. Men are easy. Sorry fella's. You just are. In fact, I could weigh 300 pounds and probably still get a guy to sleep with me. Some men like big women. I see it everyday, and I bet you do to. I big girl walking down the street holding the hand of a man. There is someone for everyone. I just happen to be a little more particular.
I have girlfriends who love the easy, young, hot guys who have washboard abs and worship the ground they walk on. Lets face it. We are not 20 anymore. With age comes a certain beauty in women. We know are bodies. We are not shy or awkward or unsure of ourselves. This is attractive to men. They can feel confidence.
So here I am, super confident, attractive, and so not willing to jump into bed with the first guy I meet. or the second, or the third. First and foremost, I have learned that I am a cerebral women. You must excite my mind. Without that, there is nothing. That narrows down the first 75% of men in Orange County. I'm not sure but it might be higher then that. Second, Yes I know I have a great body. If you comment on that, other then giving me a compliment, and No "nice rack" is not a compliment, then I am just not interested. You automatically get cut. Third, it takes more then a pretty face, a nice body, or a Bentley. I'm a little harder to please. So you see my dilemma. I've just cut off 90% of the men in Orange County. The ten percent left seem to be hiding under a bush. They might be dressed as a frog. It's difficult to tell. So yes. It's been two years since I've had sex. It might be another two. It's a choice I make willingly. I'd rather not settle.
Please all you crazy men, don't message me telling me how you can change my mind, or I just need to give you a shot. Really? I've heard that before. How about you just be you, and I'll decide if your worthy.
I can't believe I'm writing about this, but I feel I must. It's personal, but must be shared. So here goes:
O.k. So Im dating in Orange County which is a whole experience in itself. There seems to be only three or four categories of men in the O.C:
1. They drive a Bentley and have tons of money so they think they can treat you any kind of way. They know there are many women who will tolerate this behavior. It's called selling your soul.
2. They have no money and want you to take care of them. They are looking for a mommy.
3. They are trying to pretend to be somebody they are not. or..They are an actor.
At least this is what I have come across. So, with a smile on my face I go out into the world and everyday am shocked an amazed to see what is out there. Recently I met a guy who has captured my interest beyond just the first date. That in itself is quite rare. Now, of course he has his issues, and of course I have mine. But he is smart and funny and keeps me on my toes. I never liked the easy, dumb guys.
So I'm out with this guy and somehow the question comes up, "when was the last time you had sex?"
and like an idiot...I answer. And, like an even bigger idiot I answer honestly.
uhhh....2 years. O.K. don't everyone go into cardiac arrest o.k. Especially those that know me. It wasn't planned that way, it just happened. I didn't say I lost my sexual desire. I just said it hasn't worked out for me. You see I have done the one night stands. Too many times. I'm over it. Yes, I could go out tonight if I wanted, meet a guy, and have sex. Matter of fact, I'm quite sure I could go out this morning, walk to the coffee shop and bring a guy home if I wanted. Men are easy. Sorry fella's. You just are. In fact, I could weigh 300 pounds and probably still get a guy to sleep with me. Some men like big women. I see it everyday, and I bet you do to. I big girl walking down the street holding the hand of a man. There is someone for everyone. I just happen to be a little more particular.
I have girlfriends who love the easy, young, hot guys who have washboard abs and worship the ground they walk on. Lets face it. We are not 20 anymore. With age comes a certain beauty in women. We know are bodies. We are not shy or awkward or unsure of ourselves. This is attractive to men. They can feel confidence.
So here I am, super confident, attractive, and so not willing to jump into bed with the first guy I meet. or the second, or the third. First and foremost, I have learned that I am a cerebral women. You must excite my mind. Without that, there is nothing. That narrows down the first 75% of men in Orange County. I'm not sure but it might be higher then that. Second, Yes I know I have a great body. If you comment on that, other then giving me a compliment, and No "nice rack" is not a compliment, then I am just not interested. You automatically get cut. Third, it takes more then a pretty face, a nice body, or a Bentley. I'm a little harder to please. So you see my dilemma. I've just cut off 90% of the men in Orange County. The ten percent left seem to be hiding under a bush. They might be dressed as a frog. It's difficult to tell. So yes. It's been two years since I've had sex. It might be another two. It's a choice I make willingly. I'd rather not settle.
Please all you crazy men, don't message me telling me how you can change my mind, or I just need to give you a shot. Really? I've heard that before. How about you just be you, and I'll decide if your worthy.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
SUBSTANCE
The dictionary defines substance as "the actual matter of a thing, as opposed to the appearance or shadow; reality."
If you go by that definition, the actual matter of dating men in Orange County is completely lacking substance. Hence my dilemma. You see I have chosen the word 'substance' as sort of my theme word. My mantra, you could say.
When I go out and meet someone, which pretty much happens daily. I look at them and I say to myself, "does this person has substance?"
Substance is a thing that takes awhile to find out if someone has. You can't just look at the outside appearance and see if they have it or not. That's the problem with dating in the O.C. That's the part that people miss when they are sitting in their little towns in Oklahoma watching the O.C. housewife's and wishing they could live like those women live. They just don't see that the substance is missing.
If you go by that definition, the actual matter of dating men in Orange County is completely lacking substance. Hence my dilemma. You see I have chosen the word 'substance' as sort of my theme word. My mantra, you could say.
When I go out and meet someone, which pretty much happens daily. I look at them and I say to myself, "does this person has substance?"
Substance is a thing that takes awhile to find out if someone has. You can't just look at the outside appearance and see if they have it or not. That's the problem with dating in the O.C. That's the part that people miss when they are sitting in their little towns in Oklahoma watching the O.C. housewife's and wishing they could live like those women live. They just don't see that the substance is missing.
So how do you choose? Yes, he drives a Bentley, but does he have substance?. For some women this is any easy choice. A no-brainer. For me, not so much. Someone recently asked me what I was looking for. I am more sure of what I'm NOT looking for, then what I am. I would like a man that comes with substance. If he has a Bentley, that's nice too-but not a requirement. I'd like a man that can recognize that I am worth waiting for. Just because you don't have sex with me on the first date, doesn't mean I'm not worth the wait. You might even have to wait awhile. I'm still worth it.
I find that holding out and waiting for men that have substance brings some heartache. It would be so much easier to judge men on the kind of car they drive or what they have in their bank account. He with the most wins. It's just not that easy for me. I'd like a little more then that, please. I'd actually like a nice guy. Someone who appreciates me and recognizes me for the women I am. Seems simple really. But soooo difficult in the beautiful place I live, called Orange County
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
MOVING FORWARD
Its been a long time since I posted. I get so busy caught up in the day to day of what is called life. I'm in a place now where I feel so much better off then when I was married. I thought I was soo in love. I was so in love. Really, I loved my husband more than anything. And now I feel nothing. Nothing. Not mad, or sad, broken, depressed, 'wish things were different'. just nothing. It's sooo weird.
I vividley remember laying in bed with him, thinking 'I'm so in love with you after seven years of marriage, how does that happen?' and now. I'm so over you, I'm not even mad at you for the terrible things you did, how does that happen? I just feel nothing towards him. Happy he gave me a beautiful daughter who is the shining light in my life. And that's it. Grateful. Wow!
On a personal level. I've really pulled myself from the depths of despair. Its been two years since the ex walked out taking everything with him. every dime, the business etc. He literally left me and my daughter homeless, stating 'I'm not paying shit anymore' no rent, no gas, no nothing. I had to move and move quick. Figure out a way to survive. And survive I have! :). I moved my little part time bar tending business to a business that was like working full time. I husseled all my jobs so that I could make enough money to live off. I have since turned that business into an 'events production business. I'm super organized and pay attention to detail, and I love Martha Steward and all the theme matched magazines with cute little flower straws made out of baking cups, and paper lanterns and hulu hoop gardens, and all that stuff. I'm really good at it. There is nothing more satisfying to me then throwing a fab party and guests totally enjoying themselves and having no clue how much work or money went into the party,.
This month has been the first month since Nov 09, one year 11 months, since I have actually been able to pay all my bills, AND pay my car registration, AND get new tires on my car AND take a vacation. 1 year 11 months! yipee!!! It is a lot to accomplish in less then two years. Going from homeless to actually being able to purchase extras. Wow! I feel really good about myself. If I can do it, anybody can do it!
I vividley remember laying in bed with him, thinking 'I'm so in love with you after seven years of marriage, how does that happen?' and now. I'm so over you, I'm not even mad at you for the terrible things you did, how does that happen? I just feel nothing towards him. Happy he gave me a beautiful daughter who is the shining light in my life. And that's it. Grateful. Wow!
On a personal level. I've really pulled myself from the depths of despair. Its been two years since the ex walked out taking everything with him. every dime, the business etc. He literally left me and my daughter homeless, stating 'I'm not paying shit anymore' no rent, no gas, no nothing. I had to move and move quick. Figure out a way to survive. And survive I have! :). I moved my little part time bar tending business to a business that was like working full time. I husseled all my jobs so that I could make enough money to live off. I have since turned that business into an 'events production business. I'm super organized and pay attention to detail, and I love Martha Steward and all the theme matched magazines with cute little flower straws made out of baking cups, and paper lanterns and hulu hoop gardens, and all that stuff. I'm really good at it. There is nothing more satisfying to me then throwing a fab party and guests totally enjoying themselves and having no clue how much work or money went into the party,.
This month has been the first month since Nov 09, one year 11 months, since I have actually been able to pay all my bills, AND pay my car registration, AND get new tires on my car AND take a vacation. 1 year 11 months! yipee!!! It is a lot to accomplish in less then two years. Going from homeless to actually being able to purchase extras. Wow! I feel really good about myself. If I can do it, anybody can do it!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
KIM KARDASHIAN
This is just a random post. But really, I am so irritated I feel I must write. People give Kim Kardashian so much grief! So what if she spent millions on her own wedding! IT'S HER WEDDING! Not only that, has anyone noticed that SHE WORKED FOR IT! I'm so tired of all the media saying 'what does she do?' 'She's famous for nothing" blah blah blah. Really? Here's a news flash: SHE IS A BUSINESSWOMAN. Not only that, she is an extrememly smart businesswoman. Ask yourself, NBC, ABC, E NEWS, how many people do actually know that can brand themselves, themselves alone, and turn it into a multi-million dollars business?
Yes, she is a pretty girl. But I live in L.A. and there are lots of very beautiful woman. She is not the only one. Yet, Kim Karrdashian made 10 million dollars last year. 10 MILLION DOLLARS! And do you know why? Because she's smart! And her mom is too! And maybe her mom made all the deals for her, I don't know because I don't know either one of them personnally, but I do know one thing. Kim gets up every morning and brand's herself everyday. No going to the grocery store, or even stepping outside looking raggedy. She has to look good even if she is working out! This takes work! Through hard-work, and hard-work only did she earn what she has. And not 'just by being beautiful'.
Mommy may have made all the deals, but Kim shows up and works! I say GOD BLESS HER! Good work! and YOU GO GIRL!
If I made 10 million dollars, I'd have the wedding of my dreams as well, complete with flying elephants. I wouldn't care what anyone said about it. And if I can got the champagne donated and someone else to pay for -just because they like the way I look-then more power to me! So all you haters, stop hating!. Be happy for a young girl who dreamed of her wedding day for a long time and finally realized her dream! I am happy for them both.
Yes, she is a pretty girl. But I live in L.A. and there are lots of very beautiful woman. She is not the only one. Yet, Kim Karrdashian made 10 million dollars last year. 10 MILLION DOLLARS! And do you know why? Because she's smart! And her mom is too! And maybe her mom made all the deals for her, I don't know because I don't know either one of them personnally, but I do know one thing. Kim gets up every morning and brand's herself everyday. No going to the grocery store, or even stepping outside looking raggedy. She has to look good even if she is working out! This takes work! Through hard-work, and hard-work only did she earn what she has. And not 'just by being beautiful'.
Mommy may have made all the deals, but Kim shows up and works! I say GOD BLESS HER! Good work! and YOU GO GIRL!
If I made 10 million dollars, I'd have the wedding of my dreams as well, complete with flying elephants. I wouldn't care what anyone said about it. And if I can got the champagne donated and someone else to pay for -just because they like the way I look-then more power to me! So all you haters, stop hating!. Be happy for a young girl who dreamed of her wedding day for a long time and finally realized her dream! I am happy for them both.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
LETTER TO MY EX
Did you think I would just lay down and die without you? You did, didn't you? You thought if you walked out, I would either lay down and die, or beg you to come back. No matter how you treated me, no matter what you did. I would be so desperate as to allow you to do anything to me, and I would still want to just stand next to you. You think you are so special that you could treat me any kind of way and i would stay. Or die if you went?
Obviously you never knew me. Obviously you never recognized me for the women that I am. It's been almost two years now. Not only did I not lay down and die, but I came out way stronger and way better then ever before! I guess I can say, 'Thank you' for that!
I have been so blessed, and so grateful for everything I have. It was not an easy road. Before, with you, I was so busy trying to help you succeed, that I forgot to take time out to enjoy my life. Appreciate what God gave me. Spend time with my child in a loving and caring space, Not just time with my child. Time to laugh, and marvel at the moon (like we did last night), and really spend time.
Funny how God works. There was a time when I thought I would lay down and die. There were many days when I did not want to get out of bed. I only did because I had to. I had to take care of our daughter, because if I didn't, nobody would. I didn't want to, but I did anyway. There were many days when I thought I wouldn't get through the day. Now I just smile, when I look back on all that. Not only did I make it through, but look at all I have!
I am so blessed. And while you are claiming to be a 'king', and appointed by God, I sadly smile at the way you are still trapped in your own ego. The way you thought and said I would be nothing without you. The same way you profess to be a king. I guess you don't know that we are supposed to be 'humble' servants of God. And if a king cannot take care of his wife and child, he certainly cannot atke care of his people..
So there is no bitterness, nor am I mad. I actually have to thatnk you for my beautiful daughter who is such a gift from God it brings tears to my eyes every time I look at her. She is so beautiful and smart and funny. I could go on and on. But without you I would not have her, so I guess I can be cordial to you just for that. Without you, I would not be in the place I am in today. I would still be washing your drawers, cooking your meals, cleaning your house, and running a business that you and you alone profitted from. Instead, I am happy joyous and free. Every day is a blessing. Every moment I cherish. I love myself, my neighbors and the new experiences each day brings. Everything is better!
Lastly, Your daughter and I took a vacation this summer. Something you and I never did in the seven years we were together. Not even for the weekend! You never took me anywhere, much less me and your family. Well this year I went. I didn't know how I was going to afford it, but somehow God took care of that too. We drove across country and saw 'other lands' and had the best time. So sad for you that you are still trapped in your own self. But again, I thank you for it.
I did not lay down and die. Nor will I ever. Not for you, or any man. I'm sorry that you did not recognize me for who I am. I'm stronger and better then ever. Your daughter and I both. I am teaching her to be a strong, self sufficient, hard working women. My heart breaks for her, when she asks for you. But it does not break for you.
Thank you for everything you have given me. And for the things you did not. It made me who I am today, and I am so grateful for that.
God Bless
Obviously you never knew me. Obviously you never recognized me for the women that I am. It's been almost two years now. Not only did I not lay down and die, but I came out way stronger and way better then ever before! I guess I can say, 'Thank you' for that!
I have been so blessed, and so grateful for everything I have. It was not an easy road. Before, with you, I was so busy trying to help you succeed, that I forgot to take time out to enjoy my life. Appreciate what God gave me. Spend time with my child in a loving and caring space, Not just time with my child. Time to laugh, and marvel at the moon (like we did last night), and really spend time.
Funny how God works. There was a time when I thought I would lay down and die. There were many days when I did not want to get out of bed. I only did because I had to. I had to take care of our daughter, because if I didn't, nobody would. I didn't want to, but I did anyway. There were many days when I thought I wouldn't get through the day. Now I just smile, when I look back on all that. Not only did I make it through, but look at all I have!
I am so blessed. And while you are claiming to be a 'king', and appointed by God, I sadly smile at the way you are still trapped in your own ego. The way you thought and said I would be nothing without you. The same way you profess to be a king. I guess you don't know that we are supposed to be 'humble' servants of God. And if a king cannot take care of his wife and child, he certainly cannot atke care of his people..
So there is no bitterness, nor am I mad. I actually have to thatnk you for my beautiful daughter who is such a gift from God it brings tears to my eyes every time I look at her. She is so beautiful and smart and funny. I could go on and on. But without you I would not have her, so I guess I can be cordial to you just for that. Without you, I would not be in the place I am in today. I would still be washing your drawers, cooking your meals, cleaning your house, and running a business that you and you alone profitted from. Instead, I am happy joyous and free. Every day is a blessing. Every moment I cherish. I love myself, my neighbors and the new experiences each day brings. Everything is better!
Lastly, Your daughter and I took a vacation this summer. Something you and I never did in the seven years we were together. Not even for the weekend! You never took me anywhere, much less me and your family. Well this year I went. I didn't know how I was going to afford it, but somehow God took care of that too. We drove across country and saw 'other lands' and had the best time. So sad for you that you are still trapped in your own self. But again, I thank you for it.
I did not lay down and die. Nor will I ever. Not for you, or any man. I'm sorry that you did not recognize me for who I am. I'm stronger and better then ever. Your daughter and I both. I am teaching her to be a strong, self sufficient, hard working women. My heart breaks for her, when she asks for you. But it does not break for you.
Thank you for everything you have given me. And for the things you did not. It made me who I am today, and I am so grateful for that.
God Bless
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